I'm no dummy. People can only take so many picture-less posts before they start to lose interest. My apologies. I am doing my best to entertain you but my camera isn't cooperating.
Emmeline has been try to once again keep me guessing by deciding she wanted to eat. I say wanted because I'm pretty sure she has changed her mind, again. She did great for ab out a week eating as much cheese as she could get her hands on. then she moved to cheese and peanut butter cups. I tried really hard to not get attached to the idea of her eating again but I of course did. A big difference this time is that she would object if I tried to tube feed her. I think this new development made me hope we had turned a corner. Apparently not. I have caught myself feeding her at meal times even though she hasn't asked for food. Or telling her she had to choose food or alone time. Blerg. I hate it when I realize I'm doing something I said I wasn't gong to do. It's hard when you want something from someone so bad but they aren't ready or willing to give it too you. I am not patient and trying to move past it is hard. At least she wanted to and for those glorious 2 weeks she did it. I had my first taste of pump free sleep and packing snacks in the diaper bag. It was fun.
I dream of one day staying up late talking about boys while sharing junk food. Or taking my daughter out to her graduation dinner. Or watching her eat her wedding cake.