Isabella's Chistmas

I have updated isabella's wish list. she picked out everything on it. i have also added notes as to which ones are her favorites. I hope this helps anyone who was wondering what she might want.


I did it once

so i looked at the adds for black Friday and found some really great deals at best buy. for certain reasons i wont go into i was going to camp out there starting at about 11:00am on thanksgiving day to make sure i got what i wanted. the line there is really bad. josh did not like this idea because he didn't want me to go alone but he could not go with me. i started thinking. there should be something that i want so bad that i would camp out for it. i feel like that is something everyone should get to do once in there life. well, it ended up that we didn't need the computer after all so even though there was something else i wanted to get there it wasn't worth it to me to camp out just for the other thing. so here is what i did.

i searched ever add and found out who else had sales on said item. i then found the cheapest and found out what time the opened, called and found out how long their line was last year, and when people got in line last year. then i mapped out the route form my first place to the next place fitting my criteria the best. i found a place that luckily didn't get campers, was the the least expensive by quite a bit and they gave gift cards to early birds. everything seemed perfect until it got but freezing cold! i have been awake for 37 hours straight. i stayed up watching tv until 2:30 when i drove to the store. i was the second person there. we made a line and my hell began. i was thinking as i stood in the freezing cold for 2.5 hours for this store to open that my feet really hurt because of the cold. in fact i am sure that the only other time have endured that much burning pain was when i was in labor. it was terrible. i have been in the heat for 17 ours and my feet still hurt. i hope that wears off soon. the good news is that i got my goal item. i stood in line for 2.5 hours and it took me 3 minutes to purchase the item and leave the store.

i then went to walmart. they opened at 5 am and i got there at 5:20. the isles were at a stand still. no one was moving. i heard an employee say she got punched in the face. i got the toy for isabella i wanted which was the goal. there were other things that i wanted also but they were gone in seconds. i knew my friend shiree wanted some transformers but i also knew these were a fast sell out and were already gone. as i was wondering around though i noticed that someone had taken some and discarded them at the gun counter checkout. i got them which annoyed several people later on. i was also able to get the last one of the toy she wanted for her 18 month old. so i not only racked up for me but for someone else as well.

overall it was fun but due to the trouble i have had to maintain my body temperature for the rest of the day, the fact that i still have pains in my feet and that i think a blood vessel burst in my eye, i hope there is never anything i want on black Friday again. at least nothing other people want too.


parenthood sucks!!!!!

i have been in isabella's room for 1.5 hours trying to get her to stop sobbing. i finally had to just kiss her tell her i love her and walk out. she is giving up her passies. i knew even if she told me she wanted to when it came time to go to bed she would change her mind but it really sucks. her sobs are gut wrenching. she keeps trying to bargain to get them back. she want to "look at them" or "just hold them" now she has gone back to full blown "i changed my mind please let me have my passies back".

hold on i think she need help.

ok I'm back. after some deep breathing (by me) and some pats on the back to the beat of her nighttime music she is finally asleep. for now.

what i am going to say next i mean with every fiber of my being. i DO NOT want any pep talks about parenthood , stories about what it was like when your kids were little or "advice" on my life!!!

now to get on with it. why in the world do i want more kids? it's painful being a parent. i mean yeah isabella is amazingly great. the thing is i don't know that i have the life in me for another one. she isn't even into the hard stuff in life yet and my heart feels like it is slowly being ripped in two. what am i going to do when her friend doesn't invite her to their party or when she get picked on or when she gets dumped? i would be so preoccupied that i wouldn't even notice another kid. but i guess that doesn't really matter since apparently i have no control over that anyway.

more later.

well, it is done. she has gotten rid of her passies. after she fell asleep i installed her present from the passy mermaid fairy. when i woke up in the morning it was to this.

isa: (keep in mind this is the first thing she said to me when she came in my room to wake me up) "did you hang up that tent?"

me: "what tent?"

isa:" you really don't know about the tent?"

me: "no. i wonder where is came from?"

isa: (with a huge smile on her face) " i think the passy mermaid fairy left it for me so i could have a fairy house too."

it was absolutely adorable. what she got was a canopy that attaches to the ceiling made of white netting with pink ribbon hanging down from it. she really loves to sleep in it. i am super proud of her she did a great job. i had to wait to post this because isabella didn't want josh to know about it until he got home so she could surprise him.