A Long Time Coming

It has taken me a very long time to get this post together. every time i tried it brought back so many painful memories. it is hard to accept that fact that Emmeline's life has been so eventful/miserable so far. i am just very very glad she wont remember what has happened to her. i only wish i couldn't either. Here are a few pictures of the last 4 months. it feels like alot longer then that. i am pretty sure i am missing some but maybe i just intended to take a picture of some stuff and then didn't. if i find them i will post them later.

this is em and Is when she is like 2 days old and looking a little yellow.

Aunt Terra look these pictures right before everything fell apart.

Before the flash woke her up.

This is Emmeline right before her first surgery. she hadn't eaten in like 7 hours at this point.

Post surgery with her head IV. it took them awhile and that was all they could get. the blue tube is blow by O2. she really hated that b/c it was very cold. a very nice lady made that blanket for the kids in the hospital. It has a hood.

Looking like and anorexic Buddah. that band aid cracks me up.

Isa came with us to winston when Em was admitted. this was the day before the crash.

she is actually sleeping well here. The glowing hand is the O2 sensor so we would know when her airway collapsed.

The next morning i woke up to nurses bagging em. within 30 minutes we had more doctors then i could count in the room and more in the hall way. shortly after that the took her to the PICU and when they let me in she looked like this. I wasn't ready for that.

She had had two surgeries at this point and we thought we were going to go home soon. boy where we wrong.

One of the few times she wasn't hooked up to so much stuff that i couldn't hold her.

After her third surgery right after being extubated. you can see a notch cut out of the ring on the passy. that was so she could suck on it while she had the breathing tube in.

She had to have a barium swallow before the g-tube was placed. this was her all strapped in. it was pitiful looking.

Top view in the barium swallow.

Her very last picture whole.

This is what she looked like after she got back from recovery from the g-tube surgery. very cuddly and small.

She was in the hospital for Halloween. she actually had her g-tube placed that day. we had to dress her up though. the nurses loved it!

Josh took this. it only shows part of all the machines that she was using. it looks like she is in a prison in hell.

Sleeping through the hunger. they had to work up to a regular feed over several days and she was starving.

The passy holder.

cozy with the O2 after a bath.

We have taken so many more picture of her but i wanted to try and give you a glimpse of what her life was like from birth to when we finally cam home. i will show you how fat she has gotten later.


Laura said...

She still looks so sweet. It is tough to see her like that though.

Marianne said...

Must've been rough to put this together, but thanks for sharing. She sounds like a fighter. You both do. She's lucky to have you (or you're lucky to have each other...either way!).

Terra said...

I only got updates from Dad so I never knew that Em had to be bagged at one point.

I do love the photo of her in her bee costume (she looks like a little Josh). it is amazing how babies can look "just like" one parent and then just like the other within moments. I usually think she looks like you though.

Megan said...

yeah she had to be bagged for like 45 minutes at least. it wasn't the only time either. we had to bag her again about a week later.

i tend to think both girls look like josh. it's the eyes i think. they both got his VERY long eyelashes.

Matthew said...

Glad that she is doing so much better. I have pics on my phone from the one day we went to the Dr. if you want them.

Megan said...

yes please:)

Whitney said...

oh I love the one of Isa holding her. And that little bee costume is to die for! What a sweet little baby. Im glad she won't remember either. Im so sorry you have to! She is adorable!

Brittany H. said...

When she sees these pictures someday, she will know how much you, Josh, and Isa love her! She's so pretty!

Kelly said...

Your sweet baby girl is so so cute! i just love all her dark hair. She looks so tiny in those large beds. I totally remember that scene from when Gorden was at Children's. I'm glad she's home and doing well. I love her halloween costume! Super cute!