I "am" homeschooling Isabella this year. It's been hit or miss since Thanksgiving. After that break it kind of snowballed into Nutcracker, my birthday, Christmas, New Years, and now vacation. Hopefully her brightness will make up for my laziness.
Em is delayed. I know that isn't new news for anyone. I feel a constant guilt about not really taking advantage my daughters desire to learn. Her delay would probably be much smaller if I actually sat and had a school routine with her. Years gone by.
The sink is always full. Laundry always needs to be done. Appointments need to be scheduled or attended. Pretty sure I haven't showered for at least 2 days. Now cookie sales are upon me. I love Girl Scouts SOOOO much but cookies are almost enough to make me pull Isabella out and call it quits. One more thing I have to do that makes me want to lay in the bed and cry. It just feels like I'm running in the world's strongest head wind. At first you dig in and try to push through. Then the wind chuckles and blows harder. Maybe adds a little rain for fun. I just can't seem to catch up. I'm here, I show up but that's about all that seems to be happening. I'm in a constant state of panic that when I get to wherever I am going I'm going to get that expectant look from someone about something I forgot. Usually I have. They give me the pity smile and say it's OK but I am pretty sure their thoughts are more like "why can't you get your life together?!". I don't blame them. I wonder that too.
I really mean to do things. I really do. That's about as far as it goes though. I sit there and think about how to accomplish said "thing" and the next thing I know I am doing something totally different and 2 hours have passed. But I still haven't showered. Can't seem to zone out shower.